I FELT LIKE I WAS TRAPPED: A Guest Narrative

 

 

I used to be a really social person. I would always go out, and have a lot of friends. As we stayed home and weren’t really allowed to go out, because my parents were more strict, I lost friends and I stopped talking to certain people that I used to be close with. That kind of affected me, because I felt like I was trapped forcingly, like I didn’t really have a choice. And then with my family, it was actually really life changing. 

I was sexually abused by my dad. It was really hard because I really didn’t know what was going on, and I was quiet about it. I would never have expected it to happen especially since we were in lockdown. We were closer, and then I thought it was gonna be better, but it ended up being worse and completely different. I had to be involved with the police, and still am to this day.

That one incident that happened with me was one of the hardest moments in my entire life. It was hard because I was really close with my dad, and I actually liked my dad better than my mom surprisingly. But it feels like a family member or someone close to you has betrayed you, when you thought that being stuck at home made you closer with your family but instead, kind of did the opposite with someone. And that was really hard for me to overcome.

I don’t really understand why it happened but that was something that was really tragic in my family, and affected me mentally. And now obviously I’m good. Everything is good. My family is safe now. My dad is getting what he deserves. If you want to say that everything was just taken care of. It’s just now I have to focus on me mentally. 

If it was like in normal times without Covid, it would be completely different because I would be able to go out with my friends and try to distract myself and find new hobbies, try to find out what I want to be and what I want to see my future as. But with Covid going on, it’s kind of like I’m trapped. I can’t go out; I can’t go out with friends as much; I can’t really do anything. I’m just stuck with more time at home. The only place I kind of get to go and just enjoy myself kind of is at school where I see some friends and my boyfriend. 

But being stuck at home after the whole situation happened, I actually got a lot closer with my mom, and we’ve been a lot closer since we’ve had more time to spend with each other and we talk more. She’s actually taught me many things. She gives really good advice. I found out about that, and we got closer and that’s how I kind of got better mentally.

Appreciate the moments that you have with close people because you really never know when that can just go away and you don’t know when you’re going to lose them. There’s always gonna be something in life that happens and you just have to learn to be strong and to overcome it because I know anyone can. if there’s so many famous people that have, you know, have had horrible childhood or really bad teenage life growing up, or they’ve had incidents that have really changed their lives, kind of like this one, even though this one’s worldwide. But they’ve overcome it. And I see so many people that don’t have to be famous. It’s literally anyone. It can be a parent, a sister, a brother, a cousin, anyone. You don’t have someone to look up to, even if it’s not a family member, they’re always going to be there. You just have to appreciate the little moments with them.